this is a sight used to showcase aboriginal, indigenous art, music, writing, film, instructional videos, experimental videos, art, writing and more. i'm a filmmaker, musician, author, artist and dad in a small town making videos for the world and to share some knowledge, skills and have fun.
greetings friends, foe, lovers, haters, family and so on.......
i can't believe how fast time freaking goes!
i'm missing the kids right now, they were with me for 8 crazy, hectic, chaotic days......there's always such a big come down after they leave.....and i always find little evidence bits here and there, a mess of food, hidden or forgotten toys, bits of art, stickers, a soother, and whatever they forget.....it reminds me that they were really around, coz it seems surreal when they're gone back home......it's like a hurricane subsides and the house settles and everything becomes strangely calm......
anyways, i'll keep on working and doing more art and films.......
keep you posted!
cb
ps: heading out on the road again, going to be regina, saskatchewan for a week or so, then back in toronto, ontario for some gigs......update the details as soon as i know'em!
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Time: Summer 2010
As I write this, it seems to get faster and faster…….just recently I was in the archives of 92.5 CFBX FM Kamloops, (the rest of the world www.thex.ca) where I’ve been doing a variety of radio shows off and on over the past decade, and I was standing there between shelves of hundreds, no, thousands of CD’s released over the past ten years, and I pulled a disc out, and remembered how much I loved that particular album when it was released….it seemed like yesterday, and then I flipped it over and checked the release date, it was done in 2004…….fuck, I felt old…..and I feel like I’ve not accomplished a goddamn thing since then……
even though I know that is total horseshit…..i’ve had an insane creative output in the past couple years…..a book of poetry released by Kegedonce Press, over three hundred works of art on this blog….a full c.d. of spoken word that I have yet to release (recorded in the summer of 2009) several art shows, many film festival screenings of my short films and music videos……the countless workshops on filmmaking, digital art, and creative writing, and endless amounts of live gigs, poetry and music and otherwise…..
but still it feels like I’m only scratching the surface of my potential……not too mention the five amazing kids I’ve fathered and am doing my best to raise as well as a guy like me can possibly do…..given my circumstances…….I know I want to make feature films and tour professionally again as a musician……and do more books of poetry and creative non-fiction…….it just seems like I’m at the foot of a massive mountain, in the belly of a leviathan, and I feel like I’m scrambling about in a labyrinth and the map I’ve got keeps crumbling in my hands as I charge forward……
but I keep moving forward ‘coz it’s all I know what to do…….hopefully someone will see this and throw me a key to unlike more doors that I can charge through, I don’t really know where I’m going with this……I’m listening to a song called “Kingdoms of Rain” and thinking about a time a few years ago when I was hitchhiking through the Kootenays heading down to see a lover……since then time keeps moving on and so many faces keep coming and going and I hope to remember them all……
I keep thinking I need that lucky break, that one that pushes one into the stratosphere…..into eternity…….
Until next time friends, foe, lovers, fans, family and the like….
I’ll keep trying……
Cb
Ps: music right now: mark lanegan, leadbelly, mr. bungle, kinnie starr, Johnny cash, john frusciante, CR Avery, Big Sugar, Primus, Memphis Minnie, Old Crow Medicine Show, Sly Stone, and Marvin Gaye……..jeez, it’s like I’m doing a ‘Zine again……just now it’s online…..
cities are fantastic, beautiful, wonderful places where anything is possible, even the old sins of lust, greed and gluttony........
i really enjoy going to them, but i'm glad when i leave.....
so, this morning i watched the "Assassination of Jesse James by the coward Robert Ford" and can't believe it's already been three years since that film was released.....in many ways it feels like i'm getting nothing accomplished......god, that's the haunting guilt of being an artist.
watching that film was really interesting, and i picked up more on it this time, than previously......like the scene where Nick Cave is playing acoustic guitar in the saloon, knocking Robert Ford and Ford loses it.......priceless......
i guess what i recognized or perhaps, realized from the movie, was time is fleeting, it's always passing faster than we can comprehend and all to often at the end of the day, or month or year, we either realize we've missed a lot of amazing things, or we don't and keep making stupid mistakes and losing a lot of ground.......i feel i am stuck somewhere in the middle.....i constantly (?) realize the past ten years have flown by in my life, and there's many things i've missed. i guess i'm a late bloomer.
what i do miss, is waking up and seeing my kids......first thing in the morning, hearing them thump and jump down the hall, and bang pots and pans, and generally make a ruckuss first thing......
i love the idea of family, but putting it into practice, i do suck at! so perhaps it's better i'm alone, until i figure out the whole relationship dynamics thing with a partner.......
well, that's enough of my guts spilled for you dear readers, friends, fans and the like,
i've been up since five this morning....and i watched the "Five Obstructions" this morning, a film by Lars Von Trier, and have mixed thoughts about it. part of me thought it was brilliant, and the films Jorgen Leth made were brilliant, despite the haughty demands by Lars Von Obnoxious. The other part of me wanted to punch Lars in the face, as it seemed like a stupid game by a spoiled rich kid. In the end, i liked it, and this art is in turn inspired by it, and that's what i hope to do, inspire something, some kind of reaction is better than none, and in that end, the film was a success.
as an artist, i realize i'm one lucky s.o.b. to be able to do what i do and somehow, get away with it. forever, i'm grateful, and will continue to create new works for your viewing pleasure.......
speaking of which, i think i'm also done my "lust" series, or the last few images which seemed to be focused on lust, or desire, or what have ye. perhaps i'm working my way through the 7 deadly sins?! hah!
for now, the above image perhaps is about avarice? i don't know.
in the meantime, thanks for coming by and checking it out, and i hope to continue seeing you down the road that is infinitely wide and without direction......
hello friends, fans, lovers, haters, and the like....
just had my show opening last night at Arnica Gallery, downtown kamloops, bc.....i was late, and a little tipsy, but it was good fun......i didn't have to give a talk or explain things, which was kinda nice, but i did it on teevee anyways......
life is good, always a challenge, and always interesting........
do check out the show, and i will keep doing new art!
i love loud music, guitars, live shows and pretty much touring in general......i'm back to playing guitar lots again, and want to spend most of next year on tour.......
so, i'll keep you posted with new developments.......life is too short, opportunities are there, if you can see them......
until next time lovers, fans, friends, haters and so on......
strange things constantly happen in my life, and a new lover isn't one of them..........although it's nice when it happens, generally these moments don't last.......
but i'm always betting on the muse, so we'll see what happens.......she always wins.......
i'm reading tomorrow night in vancity at the Chapel Arts place, and as far as i know it ain't no religious place, just a weird name?!
plus, it's me and a buncha other NDN's, so i don't think that's the case! ha ha!
everyone likes to bounce, including myself..........we live in crazy times, but are they really?
sometimes, i wonder if the present intensity is just the same as any other epoch.
in the blink of an eye, a person's luck can change. for instance, i'm totally skint right now, but i've got two shows coming up, and figure there's no point in worrying. your luck can go up or down, it's just knowing when to quit betting and get out is the defining moment that'll save your ass.
changing seasons: i've waited so long for the warm weather and now, dare i say it, i've felt the winds change, and in the past week, the whole province has cooled off, you can smell it in the air. Fall time.
i wonder if time is getting faster as you get older, or if it's all in your head.
anyway, i'm back to making art, i'm pissed off and i'm not gonna take it anymore. time to shift my reality.
(without psychotropics or anything like that! ha ha!)
well, all the best, and i hope to see you down the road one day.......
hello there friends, fans, loved ones, lovers, haters and the like......
after a few weeks of not doing any art at all, i forced myself to sit down and do some artwork......
it was scary, after being away from it for so long, a few weeks, maybe a month, i jumped back into it, and feel good having worked on some new stuff......
also, i just dropped my kids off, and figured i might as well do something with my time.......plus, i needed to defragment myself.......
and, as an artist, i constantly feel plagued that i'm not doing enough with my time.......and i should be making more money! ha ha!
well, i've got a lot of kids to feed.......
in the meantime, i'm getting back into it and will keep you posted on riffs, art and gigs and such.......
i've got a couple shows coming up, do come and say hello and check them out, it'll be greatly appreciated, it would be great to meet, greet and have a pint!
hello friends, fans, foe, family, lovers, haters, and general people interested in the show world i've got going on here at urban coyote teevee......
i've been outta action a few weeks, but am doing some research in new art and directions and will be posting new stuff post haste......just working through the fog of a good head injury.......
but i'll keep on keeping on and see you down the road!
hey there friends, family, foe, lovers, haters, and fans......
it was pow wow weekend in kamloopa, and it was really amazing this year! but it was also hot as hell, and smoky as there have forest fires blazing everywhere, so there was a lot of crap in the air......
